Thursday, March 17, 2011

The Ides of March 2011

So aside from the world crumbling from earthquakes, tsunamis and nuclear meltdowns, movies are still, from what i understand, getting made. Life's numerous disasters puts the shenanigans of making a movie in perspective especially during those oft self-pitying moments. Welcome to to my attempt at keeping a public record of the making of a very special film. Making a movie is often compared to pregnancy and I cannot think of a more appropriate metaphor, especially at this point in my life. There are many similarities and differences as well. Both biological and cinematic pregnancies have morning sickness but the latter can have nausea spells that last throughout the day and night. Both can make the impregnated radiant and glowing with life but also beat the shit out of them physically and emotionally. Biological pregnancy has trimesters and cinematic pregnancy has stages of production-pre, production, and post. I'd argue the one main difference between the two is that in the case of creating a movie, the gestation process is much much much longer than 9 months and you just don't know when that baby is going to arrive. I'm sure my wife is going to cringe when she reads this.

Let me shed some of my own light on what are some of the "truths" I've been discovering(these may be different from other filmmakers. No gospel here, just my own experiences). First, just you can't get a little pregnant making a movie. If you do, you will--dare I say it--abort or miscarry. There are too many people trying to do what you're doing, it's crazy competitive, and many of those people will die before giving up on their labour of love. Here's a metaphor I haven't been able to shake. Many years ago I was watching the New York City Marathon with a composer friend of mine who did the music for my very first short film at NYU. As over 36,000 runners were passing us on 3rd avenue, he turned and said "You know what that is Mike? That's the film business. At any given moment, that's the amount of people trying to make a movie, sell a script, do the impossible. " Slightly dramatic but I think about that enormous pack of runners when making this movie. It's not to deflate me but to inject reality into this process. You can't make a movie without training and you better realize now rather than later that it's not 10 people in a room, it's like those American Idol stadium sized crowds all trying to get those coveted few spots of greatness. Moviemaking is really for folks who are tireless and refuse the answer NO. It's really that simple. If you can't stand rejection or even the taste of it, even a smattering, dollop, iota, let alone the aroma of it, get out. Unless you're made of money born with the proverbial silver spoon, or have a rich relative for whom writing a million dollar check is not going to cause heart palpitations, the act of making a movie is going to be...ready for this...one of the hardest things you ever endeavor to do. Let me clarify a few things: if you are making a guerilla micro-budget movie, it will still be difficult but I'm specifically referring to my current endeavor which is making a movie with well known actors for a decent amount of money that necessitates financing. If you're making a film without a care for who is in it and can accomplish this on a shoestring, more power to you, but if you're like myself swimming upstream trying to gain momentum raising funds by bringing together an impressive group of talented team menmbers...then take heed--it's going to take time, tremendous will power, dedication/drive, and an obsession with getting this done.

Okay, I'm not meaning this blog-especially the first entry-to be a bitchfest. I'm now on 6 years(if you include when I started writing this script) in the journey of getting this movie made. In movie years, this is nothing. People spend far more time. Most projects never even get made, they get abandoned. Still, to me, 6 years a lot has happened. I have been raising 2 very rambunctious boys, I have had to make a living and pay bills(again, if you're an heir or from money, you should probably skip most of this blog(You will only perceive what is one of my fundamental resentments of film which are the rich kids who only make movies because they're rich and can afford it...there's a taste of my resentment and it's not nice...but more on the silver spoon and spoiled later) These 6 years have been probably the hardest of my life just in terms of sheer amount of responsibilities both financially, emotionally, personally, and yes, creatively. (Note: I don't recommend trying to make a movie the first 5 years of a child's life--especially 2, but again, that's another blog entirely) So where was I? Let's just get to the opening statement of this blog. Fear not, this isn't about chronicling the frustrations of a filmmaker. I mean, that's part of moviemaking so it will come into play. This blog is really aimed at filmmakers and non-filmmakers alike, to better understand a very complicated process and one that doesn't have a paradigm or roadmap. Why would non-filmmakers be interested in learning about a process that is anything but linear and perhaps not even something they ever plan on doing in their lives? Well, I can't say I have the perfect answer except hopefully this will be not only about the creative process of how my brain arrived at certain decisions. This will be about the formation of a business from 2 words: Fade In. It will also be about the lessons I've learned and will learn. And mostly, it will be about what it takes to follow your dream and see it through. I think that's something we can all appreciate whether or not we have chased windmills or dreamed about chasing them.

So instead of talking much about where I am in the process of making this movie for this first entry, I just want to welcome all of you to the making of "The Red Robin." This is a movie that I've bled from my heart and soul and I hope when it is done it's obvious. If we were on a cross-country road trip from NYC to Los Angeles, I'd say we're somewhere in New Mexico right now, the car has overheated a few times, we've gotten lost here and there, but like in any good roadtrip movie, we have got some incredible characters who have gotten onboard with us: we have an incredible and dynamic cast as well as a superbly talented creative above-the-line team.
Even if the car breaksdown and the engine dies, we still have the necessary manpower and talent to get to our destination. Another words, the movie IS GETTING MADE.

Welcome onboard and hope you stay for the duration of the trip, but please buckle your seatbelts. We're only just getting started.